As I have started blogging, I have been thinking about my blog style and what I like to convey to others.
My main purpose is to inspire others to accept themselves, no matter what stage of fitness they’re at. I also want to educate others on health topics, which I find important to bring up amongst the health blog world.
Another purpose for this blog is to let people know that you don’t have to eat a certain way to be healthy. I mean, sure, it is important to eat with nutrition in mind (you know, fruits, veggies, fiber, etc, etc) but it is OK to eat other foods that you enjoy that don’t have an ounce of nutrition to them.
Repeat after me: It is OK to eat non-healthy foods!
And I don’t mean that I only eat ‘non-healthy foods’ on a so-called “cheat day” or in moderation. I sometimes eat junk all day. Take Friday night for example. I ate half a pizza and almost an entire box of cinna stix. Why? Because it tasted so darn good and I wanted to. That is why. And for me, I was OK with that decision. I don’t go out and run 10 miles the next morning or eat like a bird the next day to ‘make up for it’. In fact, I ate the other half of the pizza the next day and I didn’t workout.
A Perfect Reputation
I often get the reputation in my life for being the healthy one or the fit one. While it’s nice to know that that is how I come off to those around me, it’s certainly not all of me. People often think I eat only clean foods and that I am a perfectionist. Since when does fit mean perfect? I am so far from being a perfectionist, it’s not even funny.
Yes, fitness is a huge aspect of my life. So much so that I get paid to do what I love. But I don’t like that people often times assume I am some health-crazed freak. I’m not! I love all food: the good, the bad, and the extremely delicious. I am also the laziest fit person I know! Sounds strange, huh? Well it’s true. While I love exercise and it’s truly a hobby for me that I enjoy, I also love to sit on my couch and be a lazy bum. I am not a person that likes to be on the go all of the time. I crave downtime like no other!
I like to keep my blog basic with fitness and wellness stuff, but from time to time I do want to give insight on how I am feeling. I want to be honest, as I think that when bloggers are honest about how they are feeling it can help others out.
While I do appreciate blogs that just showcase their daily meals, workouts, and weekend adventures, I really enjoy the ones that can admit they have flaws and have struggles. It makes people more “real”.
My not-so-amazing Weight Journey
I don’t have an amazing story like some other blogger do. I’ve never lost a significant amount of weight nor have I done anything really amazing with my body in terms of fitness. I’m pretty boring!
I’ve always been an active person and have always enjoyed exercise. I’ve also never been overweight. Not one day in my life. I was always thin and had a huge appetite and really ate whatever I wanted with no thought involved. I did not struggle with an eating disorder as a teen nor did I binge eat. I just ate like a “normal person”.
I never felt particularly skinny though, I always felt “average”. However, when I look back on photos of me in junior high and high school…I was a skinny minny. Just shows that sometimes our self image is a bit skewed.
So what the heck do I know about struggles with weight? Well, unfortunately, I have experience with the ‘mental’ struggles with weight.
I often wonder if people that are overweight look at me or others my size and think ‘life must be good since they are at a normal weight’. What if I told you that I have looked in the mirror with utter disgust. Yes, I have done that. I’ve stared at my thighs and held a mirror up to look at the back of my legs to see my cellulite. And I didn’t like what I saw. I’ve turned to the side to see my stomach was not as flat as it was when I was 17 and wanted to cry. I now have a ‘pooch’. Yes, that is how I have felt before. Even skinny people feel fat. It sounds ridiculous, I realize this.
So, even though I may look healthy and I may not physically struggle with my weight, I still “mentally” struggle. What I have discovered is that no matter what weight we are, women are going to have thoughts in their heads to be even thinner because then ‘life will be perfect’.
Even for someone like me, just maintaining my weight and living day to day, I still have days where I feel lousy about the way I look. Luckily, those days are fewer and for the most part I feel OK and know that ‘hey, I’m not so bad’. But they are not completely gone and who knows if they ever will be.
I’ve also learned a thing or two about weight maintenance over the years. Like I said, I never had to watch my weight growing up. But when I went to college, I gained about 10lbs from my high school weight. I never weighed myself very often, so it was a shock when I went to my doctor and she told me my weight.
I clearly remember saying, “oh, it must have been that breakfast I just had, I can’t be that heavy”…uh huh, sure… is what the doctor was probably thinking. I failed to remember the nights of heavy drinking and the endless amounts of Taco Bell I consumed each weekend. No, that couldn’t be the culprit! 😉
My weight did settle down that summer and I lost 5 of those pounds. But I was never able to get down to my high school weight. And I still can’t do it, unless I really watch what I eat.
There have been a few times that I have tried to “lose a few pounds”. And I can usually maintain it for oh, a week. And then I eat half a pizza.
So what I have realized is that unless I want to be more diligent with what I eat each day, than I will never be skinnier than what I am. I can’t just magically be thinner without putting in the effort.
How did you lose weight? Oh, it naturally came off!
When people say that their weight “naturally came off” I think it’s bull…uh, yeah, can you explain that please? What do you mean naturally? Just admit you ate less intentionally. It’s OK to want to be thinner, it really is. But for those of you trying to find the right “maintenance weight” for yourself, you have to ask yourself how much work you are willing to do.
My Happy Weight
I know for me, that I enjoy eating a lot and I am OK with being at my weight. I may not be as skinny as I once was at 17 or 18, but I’m still healthy and I like the way I look. And maintaining my weight is thoughtless and easy. I am able to trust my body. I don’t fight it. I don’t count calories, I don’t weigh my food, and I don’t keep a food journal (I probably show about 25% of what I eat day to day in this blog). I also don’t have to exercise daily or for hours a day. I’ve taken weeks off at a time from any vigorous activity and can still maintain my weight. Do you know what this means? That this is the right weight for me. It’s my happy weight 🙂
Have you found your happy weight yet or are you still trying to find it?
What does a happy weight mean to you?