Let’s get the LOWS out of the way…
I moved away to Georgia (from Ohio) last summer in 2009 for a job. I had just graduated from Graduate School and wanted the job I had been dreaming about. I wanted to be a Fitness Director for a University Recreation Center. And when I got a job offer, I jumped at the chance.
I knew I’d have to relocate and move away from everything I knew, but I felt up for it. I felt excited for a new challenge. I figured, I’m young, not married and don’t have kids. If I want to move away on my own, this is when to do it!
I was dating Andy for almost 3-years and still wanted to continue dating him. We’d just have to be long distance. And we made it work.
We saw each other almost monthly. It was just gut-wrenching to drop him off at the airport when he’d leave. It was awful. Same thing would happen when I’d visit him or my family and friends in Ohio. Leaving was so painful and I’d become depressed. This lead me into a binge eating habit that got way out of control.
Just last year I was at war with myself. I was using food to cope with my homesickness. It was a double edged sward. I’d feel good when I was eating then feel terrible for overeating. I felt defeated.
I knew I wanted to leave my job almost immediately. But I wanted to at least finish a year. And I did. But it was very hard to have the conversation with my boss. The people I worked with were very good to me (seriously, the south has some of the nicest folks!). I was always stressed out knowing I wanted to leave and not being able to actually say anything. Eventually I did though, which started me on a path of feeling my ‘highs’ again.
Let’s move on to the HIGHS…
I quit! As much as it was a low and I dreaded having to tell my boss that I quit, it was quite the high to finally get it off my chest. I felt like I was stuck in limbo for the longest time. So when I finally made the decision to leave my job, I was then able to move on and begin planning my next steps: Which was to move back to Ohio and move in with Andy. Hallelujah, I was almost home!
Moving to Ohio
Best decision ever! I love being back in Ohio and I love living with Andy and our dogs, Boo and Sophia (I actually got both of them in GA, so Andy accumulated 3 new roomies when I moved back 😉 )
I love our little family that we have. I also enjoy being so close to his family and being close to some of my good friends. My parents are in Cincinnati, which is 4 hours away, but it’s a lot better than 10!
Food Troubles = Gone
Around February of last year is when I hit rock bottom with food and self esteem. I was battling my own body. And I finally reached a point where I had enough. That one moment of clarity and that one moment of making the decision to be good to myself changed everything. Since then I have not binged, restricted my intake, or even thought about going down that path. Each day I choose to be good to myself.
I moved back to Ohio at the end of June (also moved in with Andy!) and by October I found a full time job in my field as a Fitness Specialist. It took a few months to find, but waiting paid off (I did work at a vitamin supplement store during the months of July through October until I found something else…gotta pay those bills!)
I absolutely love my job. It’s perfect for me at this point in my life. I have nice hours, great benefits, I get along great with my co-workers and I work for an amazing organization. I couldn’t be happier with my job.
Let’s keep those highs coming! 🙂
What’s been your highest high over the past year?